5:51am sunrise! on Marine at 4th Street in Santa Monica.

To be both scared and stepping up, showing up anyway.  Because I know if there’s ever to be a chance to meet my dreams, I will be scared.  Knowing that feeling.  I will get past it.  May get embarrassed, really embarrassed.  I will get past that.  Mind may jumble up.  And I will get past it. 

And I’m going to put this out there just because it’s what’s here.  Perhaps this is the age of discomfort.  Perhaps comfort is over-rated.  

.....Let us learn, then, from those in search of what they have not been able to find and hold in the press of humanity around them: peace of mind, gentleness of heart, calmness of spirit, daily joy. Those who are mastering the art of flying solo an…

5:50am sunrise-NOT from the bluffs of Point Dume in Malibu

OK so I ain’t as rich as I used to be.  Don’t have a cushion to spend and spend.  But I do have a new laptop with new Spider Solitaire.  So I’m set.  Now all I need is a life that makes a difference.   One that uses ALL of the gifts I have been granted.  One that gives something back.

Boredom is the energy it takes to block creativity …Michael Bernard Beckwit

5:49am sunrise-NOT at Point Dume

Thought it was earlier than this.  As I walked up the path to the vista, checked the time-5:49- thinking sunrise was surely earlier than that….once again, I was right on time.  Seeing that writing this over and over and over again is not the same as letting it go, this Independence Day Eve.  Letting go can only be in the moment.  This now moment is good coffee, a marine layer over beautiful mountains and letting go of ever being late.

We invent structure to keep us feeling safe.  But safe we ain’t.  Real life is too big, too awesome, too dynamic for safety.  And that’s quite all right.  Safety is over-rated.

5:48am sunrise-NOT from the cliffs of Point Dume in Malibu

Trust in Spirit.  Trust in my own creativity which comes from Spirit and is so much more than my own contrivances will ever be.  Creativity doesn’t need answers and excuses though plenty of creativity goes into making things up as answers and excuses.

We can't stand the silence because silence includes thinking. And if we thought, we would have to face ourselves.  ...Agnes DeMill 

5:46am sunrise-NOT on 59th Street in LA

No don’t about it.   Life is good.  Thought maybe one day some others would just open to a page here to find their inspiration.  That somehow something here would speak to someone.  The One who needed it.  And yes it may have seemed like a lot of yadda to anyone else except That One-who would find it.

Beware how you take away hope from any human being.   ..Oliver Wendell Holmes

5:47am sunrise-NOT at Point Dume in Malibu.

Thank you for this day’s blessings.  Not knowing what the future will bring.  And that’s quite all right.  Trusting the flow that I will land at the perfect place at exactly the right time – as always unfolds.

If you can look into the mirror without laughter, you have no sense of humor. …Anonymous

5:45am sunrise-NOT from the cliffs of Point Dume in Malibu

Thinking about Stephen Hawking seemingly shut it his feeble body.  Whocould ever say more than he does.  And what about the rest of us?  Walking around not saying much. Wasting our gifts.  Hmmm.  Doing it wrong again, am I?  Well how about I change my mind about that?  Change my story to the one where I do all I can just being here – aware and conscious.  Awoke this beautiful morning in sunny-NOT at the moment – Southern California on Planet Earth in a solar system in the Milky Way Galaxy in the Alpha quadrant? Of this here Universe.  Wondering often why I’m here.  To say Thank You

            Micro SD card – do I really need one?  That’s the seemingly urgent question of the day.  And How am Liable to use Whatsapp without a known internet connection.  From data? And what does that have to do with storage capacity.  See I still have things to learn.  And I am still teachable.  And yes this may leave me looking like an idiot in the vast regions of the unknown - which seems, but is really not – unknowable.  We’re only here for a nano-second.  It’s a wonder we can know anything at all.  Look at me, walking around with a powerful computer in my hand.  My droid has capacity unknown when I was born.  It’s all going very fast.  Reality, that is. 

            Heard on “Through the Wormhole” that Darwin must have had it wrong since evolution occurs at a much faster rate than Natural Selection 0 random changes in a species – would ever allow.  So The Universe is way too evolved for the brief time since the Big Bang. 

            And I get to set right here and write about it – writing some questions, perhaps doomed to never having an answer!  Maybe it’s the Quest – the joy of the Quest – that makes any life worth living. 

            What time is it anyway?  I’ll guess 7:10.   at 7:09 am. OK I’m a pretty guesser about time.  Yes I am.  I have this day to do “nothing” really.  So how about I type up these pages- just because it’s for me to do today.  Read it back at bed time.  To take this energy into the dream realm adspend 15 minutes of this day in meditation.  That’s the structure I set just because I have the time.  Oh and yes I’ll call Liliana to prayon this too.  Just because that’s wheat I do.  I have the time and the willingness to do this journey whether it looks goofy or not.  And I’ll have my eggs and mushrooms andcheese with pita too.  Just because. 

And I say thank you.  The only prayer ever needed to go forth in My day.  Thank you Spirit for this here call to be what I can be in this seemingly meaningless existence.  Thank You thank Youthank You.  Wow 3 whole pages.  Almost 94 whole journals.  Enough.  Got a lottery ticket for today’s drawing – calling forth the right numbers to pay off and teach me all kinds of lessons about the realm of too much money.    Thank you!

What you see as stagnation is gestation.  You have to yield up things so the gift that wants to come through you can emerge.  ..Michael Bernard Beckwith

5:45 sunrise-NOT at Point Dume in Malibu.

No day matters more than any other.  We are all like atoms dancing around a nucleus.  We can only be seen within our bandwidth.  From a smaller perspective we huge and from far away, we’re tiny – too far and we become invisible.  Yet in my own mind I am the nucleus and oh so significant.  NOT.  And that may be my greatest comfort.  I don’thave to be any bigger of better than I already amYet I am essential to the whole magilla.  Just because I say-so.  Thank You Spirit for this faculty, this capacity to say so

The soul never acts alone.  Whenever the soul undertakes anything, there is immediate and direct assistance from the Supreme.  What the soul begins, God will finish.  God will cause it to be.    …Christian Larson