March 31, 2015

Sunrise-NOT at a quiet Modjeska Place on a quiet Tuesday this last day of March.   Made an appointment with Dr. William Chow 2 weeks from Thursday.  Recommended by Reeca.  Was just wondering if I’d lose Spirit speaking through my handwriting with micro-graphia – small handwriting that is a symptom of Parkinson’s Disease.  OK, how do I be with this, not fight it nor embrace symptons.  I am not my symptoms.  I need not embrace suffering.  And denial ain’t the way either.

Wait.  Who said what about writing yesterday?  That you let stuff go by writing it down.  Bhavani.  My mind begged to differ – screaming about 91 going on 92 journals of writing stuff down. 

Neither embrace nor deny symptoms.  They ain’t MINE.  They’re just symptoms.  There’s a whole very big part of me with no symptoms whatsoever.  Bhavani said you write things down to deal with it.  Ego said “uh-uh, you write it so you don’t deal with it.”   Well, I don’t share it.  Something here has me thinking to post all this.  That sharing  is a way of dealing with?? A way of bringing through what is here to come through me.  Seeing all I’ve put out there / let come through with the Best of Sunrises…..just as the sun appeared over Ralph’s parking lot.

  Don’t be afraid of the space between your dream and reality.   …Belva Davis

Don’t be afraid of the space between your dream and reality.   …Belva Davis